Life throws things at you that you never expect in a million years, all you can do is take what's thrown at you & make the best of it. Sometimes the decisions that we make are not always easy, but they have to be made. I've had a rough two weeks, and I know that it'll get better with time for now I am focusing on the saying  "Time heals everything". I believe that  a lot of people focus onthe negative so much they often forget to see the positive in anything. That's what I'm trying to, remember the positive about the situation I was thrown into. I know that I can make it through this because I am strong. I just need to keep my feet on the ground & don't let my emotions get the best of me.

The update, my life, Adele, and so much more.

I haven't been blogging lately, my life  has been crazy, hectic, and I've been having a lot of health problems. I will start by saying that I got promoted to full time, which is awesome. I'm making enough to take care of me, adele, and to save money. My managers are awesome, but we definitely have our days where we do not get along. I'm enjoying every bit of my life, the ups, the downs, and the middles. I broke up with Spencer on Easter, so the day after my birthday. He was treating me badly, and after being in an abusive relationship that changed me totally for three years, I was not about to do that to myself again. I can say that I am very happy with my decision, and that it's better my life immensely. Adele is doing wonderful, she is loving her baby sitter, loving life, and is the happiest baby I've ever met. She starts preschool in September and we are very excited. I got over how nervous I was and realized this is going to be so great for her. She is 100% potty trained, no accidents. She even gets up in the middle of the night if she needs to go pee, and will go straight back to bed. It's amazing to me how fast she's growing. I fall more  in love with being a mother every time I wake up, and see her bright brown eyes looking up at me, giving me good mornings loves. This has been a hard past two years just us two, adjusting to not having someone to lean on. I am glad it happened, I am glad it's just us two. I know when she gets older, she's going to be proud about what I did, and understand why I did it. I did not want her growing up in an abusive family, I will not have that for my daughter. Anyways, my health. I've been having some serious issues with my stomach, I do not know if it's from the drinking that I was going last year, or if it's something worse. It's bad though, I constantly feel sick, have a hard time finding any energy. I'm hoping to figure out  what's going on so that I can be in top shape for Adele. We went and saw Brave the other day, and I have to say I am glad about what they did with this movie. I loved that it was about a princess that DIDN'T need a prince charming, that wanted to go be adventurous & live her life. It  was amazing. I'm off now, I wanted to giveyou a little sneak into what's happening. I will try to update this more on my days off, but I usually have too much laundry and just want to play with Adele.  

MIA

I've been MIA the past two months, I've been very busy with switching to working 40 hours a week, taking care of Adele who turns THREE in August, and keeping up the positive vibes in my life. I'm not going to get too much into details here, but I will just say I am becoming one extremely happy, single mother. I've been through a lot the past almost two years, heart break, depression, a lifestyle that was not too good. I can say though, that my family got me through it all. I will do a long update later on next week, just wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive.

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Birthday weekend.

I turned 20 on the 19th, and to say the least I had a blast. It was some well spent time with Adele, and my friends. I took 5 daysoff just to have some fun, and to relax. i think that with every birthday we need to have a goal for the year, and to better ourselves. I think with age that we gain wisdom. I listen to older people, because generally they know what's going on. They have been my age before. I think at 20, I just really need to smile. I think that I need to remember who I am, and the type of mother that I want to be. I realize that once I start to hangout with my friends, I generally forget about the mother I want to be. I'm not as firm on Adele's bedtimes, her nap times, and how she acts. As a person? I want to become closer with my best friends. My friends and family mean the world to me, and so much more. They are my rocks, and I've taken some friendships for granted. I also think with the post, I want to express how amazing Adele actually is doing. She's fully potty trained! OH YEAH. She even as so much control over her bladder that she sleeps and doesn't pee the bed. She's starting preschool this fall, and I couldn't be more nervous/excited. I know that she will do amazing, and she will be one of the youngest in her class, I have no doubt that she will be one of the smartest, though. She's caring, smart, and most of all sarcastic. I LOVE her sense of humor. It's the best. She loves gardening, and just being outdoors. Speaking of which reminds me I didn't blog Easter. For Easter she got a helmet for her bike, a bunch of garden tools, flowers to plant, and lots of clothes. (Just like her mama and LOVES clothes). For now, I will post pictures of my birthday weekend. (I'll have to email the ones from Easter to my laptop later)

Daycare, Jobs, and my worries.

If you know me, you know I've always felt somewhat opinionated on daycare. Adele as never stepped foot in a daycare, and I hope that she never will. Preschool, I'm fine with.. Daycare, i'm not. I personally feel like Daycare just really doesn't provide what I want for my daughter. I like the personal bond between a full time sitter, and a child. What leads me to talking about this is that my dad  (who was watching Adele), finally got another job. It's awesome, and not so awesome at the same time. I know my family needs the money that it will provide, but I now need to decided where Adele is going to go. I have a lady Veronica who watches Adele, but I just have a bad feeling about her. Not saying she's a bad mother, or anything but I feel like maybe she's rude to Adele. Maybe she doesn't treat like she treats her own kids. I got super lucky with  my old lady, and she totally loved Adele. She was so good to her, that Adele saw their family as a second family. Or, I can put her into a daycare. I'm scared mostly that the other kids will be mean to her, and she won't know how to defend herself. I was never in daycare, either. It's hard for me to trust someone else with my own kid, my own life. I don't want anything bad to happen to her. My job is going really well, I however had to change my hours until I figure out what I'm doing with her and until I get a car. I still haven't gotten one because I am deciding if I want to buy a car, or if I want to lease one.  I'll have it figured out hopefully within the next week or so. I forgot to post about what I'm getting her for Easter, we got her a bunch of summer clothes, a new helmet, and for a big gift we might be getting it a little late. She's either going to be getting a really nice wood swing set, or a... PUPPY! I've been so puppy hungry lately it's insane. Adele wants one so bad, she even takes her little shovel and shovels Bear's dog poop to show how "responsible" she is. Hahaha! I got my hair done last Thursday, and I am definitely in love with it! It's super red, and it's different which I felt I needed. It's my birthday weekend! I am going to Spencer's house tomorrow to go see the hunger games, and drink some. Then on Saturday we are having a birthday party with my friend Krissy. I am definitely excited to have a combined birthday. I think it's going  to be a lot of fun, and it will be so great to have all of my friends in one place. Well, I'm off to take my nightly walk!

Everything is for you.

You are the light of my life. You make my heart glow, and you make my days feel worthwhile. I love you Adele Joy

Potty Training

I haven't posted in awhile, but I thought I should say that Adele is practically potty trained! I couldn't be happier, we are still in diapers while she goes to bed because she doesn't know to get up and go pee by herself yet. She's getting so big! I can not believe she's 2 and a half. For her birthday I'm planning something super active. :) I love that I get to run around with my little girl, and we have so much fun together. I think next year I'm taking her to Disneyland for spring, not sure yet! For this Easter, I've been thinking about buying her a puppy. Since I want another baby, I decide to replace that feeling with a puppy! Hahaha. Spencer and I are doing really amazing. :) We've been hanging out about  2 months now. I recently just bought a laptop, so hopefully this means more blogging and more pictures of Adele. She still dislikes sitting for thecamera. Haha